The New Me ( After two years in hiatus)

Wow its been ages since i last blog about something...thank God I still remember my password to open the blog.

I don't know why I suddenly feel like blogging again..and I took quite sometime to read all my old entries. It feels great that I do wrote something about my life 2 years back..it was like a memories that I can recalled even though in real life, I almost forgot everything that I had done in the past.


Reading the old entries reminds me of those days when I was grieving over my long lost love. He had been there in my heart..for quite a long time until I believe that i should stop crying and grieving. For God's sake, he would never come back..we are not meant to be together. It took me quite some time to understand and accepted the fact. But I'm glad i did and I've moved on with my life. But still, it's funny to read all those stuff, of how emotional and stupid I've become at that time.


I'm going to be 25 next month..time really flies. I envy those friends who now becomes somebody's wife or mother..while I'm still me, still catching up with my boring life. It's not that they had great accomplishment in life, it's just that they have moved on to the next phase in life. Still, I don't measure happiness with all those things..for me, happiness is about doing the things you like/love, being with someone that will make you feel happy..be it your friends or family.



I am older and wiser now..and although my life was quite boring, I am grateful that I have a stable job..with little money of course but that doesn't keep me away from being happy. I'm saving some of the money for the future..because I don't really know what's going to happen in the near future.



I feel great to blog again...because it is about the story of my life. It's ok if no one wants to read whatever i wrote here in the page, but it was like my own journal that I wish to treasure. Because I don't have any time machine to go back to the past..so this is a way I cherished all the great memories I had in the past. Be it a small, trivial things...I'm glad I had those memories.


Ok, till we meet again in the next entry. I really wish that I could update the blog regularly, like I used to do. Praying hard for that.


XOXO.

Friendster - hamizah's Photos - volunteer for paralimpiad games

Friendster - hamizah's Photos - volunteer for paralimpiad games: "me n frens"

Nota buat sahabat

Lama rasanye x post new entry. aku busy sangat sebenarnya..tengah mark tutorials + report marketing yang banyak sebab aku aja 2 class utk semester 4. Pastu ak nak tanda re-do assignment budak sem 2 pulak. ak janji ngan budak2 ni nak kuarkan carry marks minggu dpn. hopefully mampula ak kuarkan. jgn janji tinggal janji je. heh.

Tapi post kali ni bukan pasal keje, hehe i had enough talking bout my endless job. This time around nak cakap pasal benda lain plak. dulu aku de sorang kawan..sgt2la close, sume benda aku cite kat die..well almost everything, aku trust die sangat. but in the end, skrg nie kitorang bukan je da x bercakap, malah langsung x berhubungan. aku try contact die, tapi x berbalas. kadang2 aku terfikir kenapa la boleh jadi sampai macam ni??

Tapi yang hati aku rasa ralat sangat, sebab sampai skrg walau apepun dia cakap kat aku, walau aku rasa sangat sedih dengar kata2 tu, tapi aku x pernah benci die. Aku masih anggap dia kawan aku dunia akhirat. Tapi die yang nak menjauhkan diri. Mungkin kehadiran aku cume mengganggu kebahagiaan dia skrg. Well, kalo itu yang die rasa, aku mmg nak mintak maaf sangat2 kat dia..sebab aku da sedar sekarang, dan aku xkan ulang lagi benda2 yang die x suka aku buat.

Sebenarnya, aku x suka sangat nak tulis hal2 ni dalam blog, but maybe this is the last medium yang boleh aku gunakan untuk sampaikan mesej kat kawan aku ni. Aku harap sangat die baca.
Mungkin persahabatan kita sampai sini je, tapi awak tetap salah sorang kawan baik saya. Yang ada di saat suka dan duka. Yang saya harapkan persahabatan kita sampai mati sebenarnya. Tapi kadang2 apa yang kita nak x semestinya kita kan dapat. Jadi saya bersyukur kerana ALLAH menemukan kita satu ketika dulu. Kalo ditakdirkan memang awak membenci saya, saya minta maaf banyak2 kat awak. Saya pun maafkan segala kesilapan awak. Kalo lepas ni saya da x cari awak lagi, saya nak awak tau yang bukan sebab saya benci awak. Tapi saya rasa biarlah keadaan reda dahulu. Satu hari kita pasti jumpa lagi. Tapi dalam suasana yang gembira..insyaAllah. Saya harap suatu hari awak akan maafkan saya. amin.

Manusia..

Rasa sgtla menyampah mendengar statement dari sorang makhluk tuhan nie.
Aku pon xtau apela masalah minah sorang nie..asal nampak je muka aku mesti nak ngadu benda yang sama. Kalau sedap dengar tu tak ape la jugak. Ni sikit2 aku jugak yang rasa tempiasnya.

Bikin ati aku panas je..tah la aku tak tau la pe masalah dia ngan aku, apa yang die tak puas hati tah. Kau tu dah lengkap serba serbi, rupa ada..cantik bergaya, kahwin ngan orang kaya..aku ni apa pon tak ada tapi aku bersyukur la apa aku ada sekarang.

Huhu lantak kau la..setiap kali kau ckp benda yang sama tu, aku kdg2 nak tergelak sendiri pun ada. Tapi dalam hati la..hahaha
Kau memang sama ngan mamat lagi sorang tu...patutla boleh jadi kawan baik.

Anyway, kau bagi pengajaran terbaik untuk aku hari ni..
Betul la orang kata, lebih baik diam dari kecoh tak bertempat..
Sebab apa yang keluar dari mulut kita akan reflect diri kita sendiri..and of course kebodohan kita sendiri..
I've learned a good lesson today..huhu

PADAN MUKA AKU..=(

Baru balik maen futsal kat Bandar Tech ngan officemates. Maen x seberapa pon..jd penonton je lebih. plg tak tahan on the way balik tu, boleh plak bantai langgar divider..adussss sakitnye ati ku. nasib baek x nampak obvious la kesan pelanggaran sempurna tu.heh.

Tapi kan, still ada scratch cket kat bawah tu..
Huuuuu..pejam mata jela hamizah oiiii...
Naseb ko la.
Tula gatal sangat nak kuar malam maen futsal..
Kesian kereta ku...waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Huhu tp yg sebenarnya padan muka aku...tula,degil lagi..
=((((

Jiwa kacau + Berlagak Cool = Mereng

Huuu sangatla nak update blog..tapi xde masa dan xde cite best..sob..sob
What I can say now is, I'm moving forward..no turning back...

Keje, keje dan keje..sangatla bosan hidup ini..
Naseb baek dapat lepak dgn Huda kat McD berjam2 tadi. Walaupun keje tak siap...tapi aku happy!!!
Sebab aku tau keje tu memang xkan penah siap pon.
So take your time and relax..pastu buat muke cool..walaupun tak cool..hahaha.

Hamizah, hamizah...owh apela nak jadi ngan kau?? Makin menjadi2 plak malas kau nie..
Eh2..sebenarnye aku bkn malas, cume tak cukup masa nak buat semua..
Wished i had more than 24/7...
Huhu jiwa aku kacau skrg..kejap2 org tepon x pon sms aku tanye mcm2..tapi aku berlagak cool jugak layan sume orang..
Oh cepatla budak2 nie hantar report LI..aku mahu berehat..=(
Bukan aku x suka nak entertain korang..aku cuma penat n banyak sangat benda nak kena pikir..
Boleh mereng lama2 macam nie..

Owh sekarang aku wajib tido..esok masuk keje pukul 8 daaa...
Tomorrow will be a long day for me...walaupun keje menimbun x siap, tp muke mesti maintain cool esok..=D

p/s: Shah, kan bagus kalau aku betol2 cool mcm kau?? Mesti aman dunia kan...

In Love with Edward Cullen

Yes i know i kinda late posting this..the Twilight series was already out for quite sometime. The first movie of Twilight series is out on the cinema in 2008. The second series was released in the cinema on November/December 2009 or something like that..which i hardly remembers. But I do heard a lot about Edward Cullen back in 2008, but i dunno why..i haven't had any chance to watch the movie during that time.

Starting 2009 i was busy with my work, i almost forget about the movie...and in the end i heard that my friend Zahir has the Twilight vcd..and he also has the book as well. *Awesome*
I was like asking him to lend me the vcd for like a millionth times last year, but whenever i asked, he would say something like these..." I think i left it at Ramdan's house..i'll try to find it for you later ok. " Huhu okie dokie..and then i also forget about this and we keep having this same sort of conversation whenever we met. Pathetic. Haha. The thing is, his vcd is like no longer his..i heard that because he left it at Ramdan's, a lot of people borrowing the vcd and now I don't know where it is. same goes to Mr. Zahir i guess...haha zahir2...

So few days ago i was browsing on my brother's pc and found out that he has the movies..Twilight plus New Moon. OMG i 've been searching anywhere and he actually has it! haha. talk about being lame.

The first movie of the series, Twilight is awesome...i was in love with Edward Cullen and his entire family..haha i really like their weird expressions...and am still laughing bout how Bella's friend potrayed Dr. Cullen as a matchmaker just because of the weird family situation. haha everyone has a partner except for Edward..and thats all because he's actually waiting for Isabella Swan to appeared in his life. Owh..how i wished to be Bella and get to have a date with Mr. Vampire..*eyes drooled*

I dunno how to express the feeling..but i really like Edward..i guess Robbert Pattinson played the role very well..he has that charming nice smile that can melted everyone's heart..makes me wanna smile everytime i watch his cute face..=)

Weeeeee..i know i'm being corny and cheesy here, but trust me, who wouldn't fall in love with him??..he's a heartthrob ok!;p

But, i aso don't know why i don't really like New Moon..haha i think it's because Edward's appearance in the movie is so little compared to Bella and the Jacob guy. And I don't really like Jacob.. i think he's just interrupting in the whole scene. haha too bad i said this. And maybe because i don't really like men who loves to show off their body..with beared skin. OMG i hate it especially when it is Jacob. Things might be different if it was Edward..hehe ;p

Ok, finally i want to share with you people one of my favourite quote from the Twilight. I seriously don't know why..but the feeling that i had when watching this movie is fascinating..i'm loving it=)


Edward: And so the lion fell in love with the lamb…
Bella : What a stupid lamb
Edward: What a sick, masochistic lion.

(I really love this one, above all means..sangatla comey...its like the love of human and vampire..totally ridiculous..but existed in Twilight. haha)


p/s: Wish i can find my own version of Edward Cullen..anyone?? Cant't wait to watch another two movies from the series..Eclipse and Breaking Dawn..hope it was as good as the first movie *wink2*

Hitam Putih Kehidupan

Kadang2 aku rasa macam sedih n sunyi sangat...ntahla aku pun xtau nape..
Last week aku g beli 1 buku ni kat kedai buku...buku himpunan doa2..rasa nak sangat beli buku yang boleh menenangkan jiwa aku yang sedang kacau nie.
Tapi aku x baca2 lagi sampai hari ni..sebab aku period. Hopefully by tomorrow bolehla aku start membaca sikit2 doa2 tu..

Aku pun xtaula pe jadi ngan diri aku..
Aku makin x bijak mengurus masa..
Kadang2 aku sangat tertekan dgn kerja yang x berhabisan kat office, padahal salah aku sbb x urus masa ngan baik..
Aku da jauh lari dari diri aku yang dulu..
Diri aku pun da x sangat motivated macam ms belajar dulu.

Kehidupan peribadi aku pun makin merudum
Aku kadang2 rasa tertekan atas perkara yang kecik2..ntahla..
Mungkin aku sendiri mencari masalah..
Taknak melupakan dan pandang ke depan..



Tapi, 1 perkara yang pasti.. aku sangat2la bersyukur ngan nikmat yang Allah kurniakan skrg..
Betol ckp mak n orang2 di sekeliling aku, aku nie bertuah..
Masa orang lain masih mencari pekerjaan, aku da dapat kerja..
Masa sambut birthday yang 23, aku da nak dekat 10 bulan da keje..
Kerja plak dekat je, x sampai 10minit drive pun..duduk rumah da jimat macam2..
Gajinya yang diorang bayar pun setanding ngan ijazah yang aku ada
Ape lagi yang kurang dalam idup aku??
Sememangnya aku wajib bersyukur...


Skrg nie bukak Youtube mesti aku cari lagu Sheila Majid Hitam Putih Kehidupan
Adik aku Fara yang baru form3 tu cakap tu lagu lama..lagu orang tua2 cam aku je dengar..
Mentang2 aku da nak masuk 24 tahun nie..
Tapi aku suke lagu tu..
Sebab lagu tu mengingatkan aku supaya selalu bersyukur..
Hidup ni ada hitam putihnya..langit x selalunya cerah..
Masalah akan sentiasa ada..tapi kita la yang bijak menghadapi
Kena selalu tenang..sabar..
Sebab hidup ini terlalu berharga untuk disia2kan..

Kawan2 dan semua orang yang aku sayang, cubala hayati lagu nie..

Lihatlah sekitar alam
Dunia luas terbentang
Langit tinggi kebiruan
Pohon-pohon kehijauan
Hembusan bayu yang menyegarkan

Dengarkan di sana-sini
Beburung riang menyanyi
Berbunga aneka warna
Sumber kedamaian jiwa
Mensyukuri nikmat Maha Esa

Begitu berharga kehidupan ini
Bagi mereka yang tahu menghargai
Mengapa terdorong oleh perasaan
Kalau turutkan hati diri menjadi korban

Tiada yang dapat lari dari masalah diri
Hadapi lah dengan tenang
Tiap cabaran yang datang
Atasinya dengan keimanan

Sekadar buat renungan
Untukmu teman tersayang
Hitam putih masa depan
Sendirian menentukan
Hidup ini usah persiakan

BEST kan lirik die..aku suka sangat...=)

InsyaAllah aku nak idup dengan penuh kebahagiaan dan keimanan
N nak lupekan kisah2 lama yang penuh kesedihan
Setiap saat dalam hidup ini terlalu berharga untuk disiakan
Mana tahu esok lusa aku dah xde di muka bumi nie..=(

Ya Allah, i really need your help.
Berilah petunjuku kat hambaMu yang lemah ni.
Semoga aku diberi petunjuk dan hidayahMu untuk hadapi segala masalah dan kesulitan.
Semoga aku bahagia dan bersabar menempuh segala dugaan hidup.
Amin Ya Rabbul Alamin.

RAPUNZEL VS MR RIGHT

I know its been a while since i last posted anything here..i was busy doing my routine n i have to admit that i missed this blog a lot..:(

Perhaps i was too busy juggling things, n i almost give up doing all the works and in the end, i abandoned this blog too. Its really exhausting and definitely tiring just being me.

Haha i know i grumbled a lot=) but yes, i was not in the mood to blog for weeks n months. I have a lot of things to do such as preparing notes for the lecture, studying on each topics that will be taught in the class, marking all the industrial training logbook reports, and of course a lil bit of facebooking n some other common interests. Sometimes i wish i had more than 24 hours a day. Life's too short..now i believe this. haha.

Well we have English Carnival coming right after Chinese New Year, so i was given the task to look after the volunteers during the whole event. Our theme for this year's carnival is Fairy Tales and after the lucky draw, our college theme is Rapunzel. Omg..can you imagine that all of us need to dress up like Rapunzel during the theatre nite?? I was excited but...Rapunzel??Oh My God..

Haha forget about Rapunzel, i'll just find some suitable dress to wear that nite but no Rapunzel i guess. I'm too old to wear Rapunzel's dress, haha if only we have this theme for the school's prom nite, then i'll be delighted to wear it along with the girlfriends back in high school. Girls, i miss u people badly!

Haha speaking of the girls, i met few of them this evening while attending a friend's wedding..not exactly a friend actually. She's my sister's friend. And i'm her sister's friend. Did you get it?? (maknanya kakak aku kawan ngan kakak die, aku kawan ngan adik die..) hahaha..its been quite sometime since we last met each other..well Ita is getting married next month..sooner than i think. huu miss them alot actually..the people i grow up with..now somebody's taken, who's next??hahaha we'll just wait n see.

I was thinking a lot lately, im turning 24 this November..its quite frustating having people asking me these:

Are you with someone now?
or
Do you have a steady boyfriend?
or
When are you getting married?
or
I heard you had a boyfriend back then...what happened to him?

OO c'mon, i'm just 23 going to 24..still young, so these typical questions shouldn't bothers me much..isn't it??
But i don't know why..it does bother me..because being 24 is no longer that young to get married..being 20, yess.


Argh..frustated. Should i go find somebody now??hahaha lame isn't it..


Ok, this is my answers to that typical questions.

No, i'm not with anybody..im all alone right now. Being single doesn't mean i have to be single all my life..i'm enjoying myself right now. Its ok if the one that i love doesn't returned my love. Its hurts but later everyone's recovering..just look at the bright side. I want to enjoy my life to the fullest..so that i won't regret anything later on. I'm not just being optimistic here, i believe in Allah the Almighty. Everything happened for a reasons, just have faith to God..everything will be revealed when the time is right.

Weeeee, can't believe i had these written down. Sounds so serious right?
Okie2, pray for my MR. RIGHT..my KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR..my POPEYE THE SAILORMAN..my MOMORU CHIBA..my RYOKI TACHIBANA..haha my alll..

Love all of you..take care
n
Happy Chinese New Year
(to : my dear Ee Tieng, Pei Ching, Lee Chin, Peck Ling and all the Chinese girlfriends i had in Convent Kajang back then. Miss u people..=)

Undescribable feelings

I have problems with people..i think i've done my best to be fair to others, to accept whatsoever things that they complained about me, anything including condemning me for a little thing..but sometimes i think its too much too bear. Makes me wonder, what the hell is going on here?? Am i the one who done they wronged, so now they can just spilled out their anger to me.

Okay now, im crush and burn. No matter how sad or how distracting the feelings is, i've tried so hard to act like everything went well for me. And for THEM. Smile..while you can. I just don't understand why other people can hurt your feeling..through and through and act like nothing happened. Don't they have feelings too? Sometimes, i felt sooooo frustrated..because i know, as a human being, there are times that we do make mistakes. I try hard to make everyone feel happy, and manage to smile even when people make fun of whatever i said. Now sarcastic words are just like lullabies to my ears. I am no angel. I have feelings too.

Having friends around you really made you feel cheerful and grateful. But believe me, there are times that you just wished to be alone~ sad to say,isn't it??

Well, friends are the family that we choose for ourselves. No matter what, always be grateful to have one..but never ever let them hurt you, deeper and deeper each day. Be strong enough to accept the challenge. After all, its life anyways. You can't make everyone likes you..its more than enough if you can have ONE friend that accept you, love you just the way you are.


p/s: Kam.. aku rindu sama ko...haha teringat naek bas sama2, pegi cafe sama2..tido sekatil..rindu gile...=(

Selamat Pengantin Baru

Haih lama betul x tulis pape..padahal banyak je nak tulis. Well, skrg nie da start keje balik after cuti lebih kurang 2 weeks. Masa cuti ni aku banyak la g kenduri kawen..yela cuti sekolah kan..ramaila orang mendirikan masjid.

Hari Sabtu 19 Dec aku g Klang..wedding Kak Nadia, huhu sgt teruja nak g wedding nie..Kak Nadia nie senior masa kat UPM, tapi dia study accounting..such a nice gurl, sbb tu xnak miss wedding dia. Original plan nye aku patut pergi ngan Su n Azmir..sebab bridegroom tu kawan diorang, tapi last minit cancel sebab Su outstation pegi Indon. Akhirnya aku pun pegi jela ngan Azmir walaupun aku dapat rasa mesti semua orang ingat aku ada pape ngan Azmir nanti bila kitorang datang berdua. Haha dan ternyata memang sangkaan aku betul..sebab Kak Nadia pandang aku ngan muka tanda tanya, yela..dia memang tau aku ngan sape kat u dulu kan, mesti pelik tengok aku datang ngan orang len pulak. hahaha. Tapi Kak Nadia nampak sangatla comey di kenduri kawen aritu. N aku pun sangatla happy dapat jumpa Nad ngan Kam..da setahun lebih x jumpe..walaupun jumpa kejap je, tapi berbaloi jugakla walaupun meredah jam dan hujan. Apa2pun Selamat Pengantin Baru to Nur Nadia n Khairul Nizam.


The next day hari Ahad (20 Dec) aku plan dengan Kak Bai nak pegi kenduri kawen Kak Qama n Kak Hani. Satu kat Sepang, 1 lagi kat Ampang..naseb baekla Dr. Halimah our Program Consultant nak drive, haha nak harapkan aku memang sumpah tak sampaila. Kitorang pergi Sepang dulu..setelah sesat2 jalan berkali-kali sampai gak akhirnye. Nampak lain sangat muka Kak Hani lepas di make up..cantik. Aku rasa sangat interesting wedding dia yang still mengikut adat-adat Jawa. Tapi sayangnya kitorang da terlambat nak g wedding Kak Qama..mungkin tak ada rezeki kot. Huhu neway Selamat Pengantin Baru Qama n Razlan serta Hani n Rosdi.


Seterusnya wedding Faizah kawan tempat keje aku 26 Dec..huhu ni pun naseb aku dapat pergi. Nak dekat pukul 2 pagi aku sms Ari tanya dia pergi tak..haha esok pagi baru dia balas. Naseb dia pergi..bolehla aku tumpang..konvoi sekali ngan Kak Nora. Nasib baek ada Kak Nora, best sikit ada kawan perempuan. Faizah nampak cantik sangat..pasangannya pun good looking..haih bestnya orang kawen nie..hahaha. Tahniah kepada pasangan Faizah dan Ezam..

Mm..sume da kawen...aku doakan semoga berbahagia hingga akhir hayat. Agak2nye lepas nie sape pulak punye giliran?? hehe

Ape2 jela..

Bile jadi macam ni mesti aku teringat seseorang..alangkah bagusnya kalau aku tak buat benda bodoh tu dulu. Mesti aku tak rasa macam ni punya menderita kot sekarang. Mesti ada orang yang nak dengar cerita aku, tak pun call aku semata2 nak dengar aku menangis.

Tapi hakikatnya takkan pernah berubah..walaupun banyak kali kau cuba pun tetap sama jugak. Huu rindu betul la masa dulu. Kadang-kadang aku pikir balik, betul ke macam nie??Only God knows..

Aku tengah pikir lagi..yang da beribu-ribu kali pikir, betul ke macam nie..masih tak ada jawapan. Aku masih tercari-cari..apa yang aku cari pun aku tak pasti. Can somebody guide me?? Rasa penat, sedih, marah, geram, benci, sunyi dah bercampur-campur. Bagusnya kalau kau ada sekarang..dah lama tak jumpa, apa khabar agaknya? Masa berlalu memang cepat..tapi hati aku taklah melupakan secepat itu. Sebab aku tetap aku.

Aku kena hadapi kenyataan..kenyataan yang berlaku hari ini dan tak lupa jugak yang berlaku setahun empat bulan yang lepas. Aku tak mahu diberikan peluang..aku cuma mahu apa yang aku mahu. Susah ke? Mm susah kot, dapat pulak yang kepala batu+mulut cam tongkang pecah camni.

Argh..sakitnya hati.. tapi aku takkan mengalah. Entry ni ditujukan kat orang yang bergaduh ngan aku hari nie..Kau ingat kau hebat, kau lupe kot ada yang lagi hebat dari kau. Aku tak risau, tuhan kan ada. Yang penting, ko jangan harap nak sakitkan hati aku lagi. Mulai hari ini, aku tak nak tahu lagi pe jadi kat kau. Menyampah aku. Boleh blah.


P/s: Entry ni tak ade kena mengena ngn awak, awak dan sape2 jugak yang baca. Sape makan cili die la yang terasa pedasnya..hmm

Just A Short Update..

Hallooo..

Huhu aku tau aku da lama tak tulis blog..tgk blog Nad pun da mcm2 die update. Many things happened..haha xtau nak cite mana dulu..ok la, aku nak bgtu nie..aku da bukak account facebook. i know for some people diorang rasa facebook nie cam da outdated barula aku nak join, haha but who cares kan? yang penting aku da bukak..^-^

N aku ada lagi satu good news, finally family aku da pindah ke Suria Grande..finally,finally!
So ini bermakna skrg nie jarak aku g kerja cuma lebih kurang 10 minit je..hehe..tapi aku sorang jela dekat, orang lain yang duk serumah ngan aku sume jauh nak g kerja.

Patutnya skrg aku da cuti..tapi as a member of timetable unit, aku tengah busy buat subject tracking analysis and combination class for next semester. rasa pening sangat tgk data yang sangat banyak, quite a number of repeaters sem nie..hai napela budak2 nie suka sangat nak repeat paper hah..kalo diorang clear papers kan senang..tak payah aku nak susah2 pikir diorang punye drop and regular papers.

Okie, nantila aku tulis lain kali..skrg nie nak siapkan keje dulu..huhu..

Petang yang gelap

Huhu hari nie aku tak balik umah, stay kat office nak siapkan layout design untuk Family Day esok...huhu macam tak tercapai dek akalku je bila aku dilantik jadi AJK Persiapan n Perhiasan. aku nie da la langsung tak creative, hampeh betul. Rasanye mmg aku kena keje sampai malam la nie, malam nanti tumpang umah Huda la nampaknye. Tapi yang agak melegakan ati sebab aku dapat memujuk Shafiq untuk tolong aku n Huda malam nie...huhu thank you Shafiq...

Nasib baik Diba dah tolong aku bungkus all the gifts, kira save la sikit masa aku..carry marks students ETR x dapat lagi aku kuarkan, kesian plak ngan budak2 sem 5 yang nak gi praktikal da ni. Shahrul sms ak few times nak tau result die..rasa bersalah plak, tapi mmg aku x sempat la..aku 2,3hari nie duk settlekan hal Kelab Mesra je, kejap2 g Tesco n Mydin beli barang..sampai tugas hakiki aku hampir terjejas jugak. Aku harap aku dapat settlekan carry marks tu dalam masa terdekat ni, kesian budak2 tu...da la soalan final hari tu susah gile n out of syllabus, aku pun x paham nape la panel yang buat soalan tu tak discuss betol2 b4 finalised paper tu. Apapun aku kena fight la untuk budak2 nie, kesian diorang...da la team marking lambat lagi..aduyai..

Aku ada banyak lagi nak write down, tapi aku banyak lagi keje nak buat..ni pun sebab petang nie hujan je aku boleh menghadap pc nie. jap g nak sambung keje plak kat walkway depan main hall..

Ok. TATA.

Birthday gift for myself

Dalam kelam kabut fikir pasal Family Day, tetibe je aku mendapat satu penyakit..huhu aritu adik aku yang bongsu sakit mata, pastu aku n mak aku plak terjangkit..pastu sorang2 family members pun kena jugak. Aku g klinik panel n dapat MC 2 hari je. Tapi walaupun cuti tapi sebenarnya banyak ulang alik g Suria Grande, yela tak lama lagi da nak pindah situ. N finally i've already bought a new wardrobe. Tapi bile tgk2 balik rasa cam kecik la wardrobe tu..tapi x apela da beli pun..

Huhuhu yesterday ialah my 23rd birthday..kelakar tak, i bought myself a new wardrobe on my birthday! hahaha kelakar kan beli hadiah untuk diri sendiri..mmg da lama nak beli tapi tah camane la boleh terbeli hari nie...mungkin sebab hari nie semua orang free, semua MC sakit mata..hahaha

Kamal sent me sms, dia wish happy birthday..n dia kata lagi semoga dipermudahkan urusan dan jodoh. huhu rasa mcm da tersangatla dewasa when people start talking about jodoh kan? Tapi mmg da masuk kategori adult pun..23 maaaa..huhu tp rasa makin tua la..neway thanks Kamal n semua kawan yang wish my birthday. Huhu maxis bagi free call tapi x sempatla nak call semua orang..sori ye..

So for this birthday i have my own wish list;
1) Semoga saya terus ikhlas n tekun bekerja
2) Hopefully i will meet my dear soulmate ^-^
3) Nak kumpul duit banyak2..
4) .........

Haha da xleh nak fikir..tapi tu antara yang paling utama la....hahaha.
Tapi tercapai or tak..sama2la kita tunggu. N one more thing, today is my brother's birthday..Selamat Hari Jadi ke 24 to Asyraf..semoga panjang umur n murah rezeki..May ALLAH bless..=D

Okie la, ade keja nak buat..tata..:)

Happy Birthday Kamal

Little brother, its your birthday tomorrow..just wanna wish u happy birthday, semoga dipanjangkan umur dan murah rezeki..haha i know its something typical for me to say those things, the wishes is almost the same every singe year, isn't it?

But its great to have a brother like you..huhu hopefully all your dreams will come true. May ALLAH bless.

To Do List

1) Photostate minit mesyuarat department

2) Check the student's Business Plan- tomorrow you will have two ETR's presentations

3) Baca balik minit mesyuarat Admin meeting yang ko attend pg tadi, esok nak present daaa..

4) Photostate student's target grade form

5) Re-checked student's subject tracking form

6) Order food & beverage for tomorrow's meeting

7) Beli cake birthday Kak Bai n Shafiq

8) Mark the student's tutorials n assignments

9) Fill in softskills form..


I have so many things to do...harap2 everything dapat settle secepat mungkin..rasa nak rehat je skrg..cepatla sampai marking week..nak cuti, cuti dan cuti..hehehe

?%*&###

Kenapa bila ada benda berlaku, aku mesti orang terakhir yang tahu??

Kadang2 aku rasa baek aku x payah tau langsung..

Argh..lantak la..malas da aku nak fikir or amek tau..

Yang penting hidup aku tetap jalan macam biasa...

Biarla apa orang nak kata..

Aku sakit pun orang takkan peduli..

So skrg..aku tetap aku..

Kau tetap kau...

Akhiran kita tetap lain jugak...

ALLAH Knows Best

Rindunye aku pada masa itu..kalau la boleh kembali lagi..
Tapi kau da pergi..dan tak ingin kembali..
Salah aku kah?
Oo rindu..mainan perasaan yang aku sahaja tahu..

Tuhan..
Tolongla aku..bantulah aku..
Aku masih boleh hidup tanpa dia..
Tapi aku tidak boleh hidup tanpa MU..
Ya ALLAH, bantula hambamu yang lemah ini..



Aku cinta, aku rindu...TAPI...kau bukan untukku..
Maka aku redha saat ini berlalu pergi..
Kerana ALLAH lebih mengetahui..

Allah Knows
Album : Allah Knows
Munsyid : Zain Bhika and Dawud Wharnsby


When you feel all alone in this world
And there’s nobody to count your tears
Just remember no matter where you are
Allah knows, Allah knows.
When you’re carrying a monster load
And you wonder how far you can go
With every step on that road you take
Allah knows, Allah knows.

Chorus:(Cause)
No matter what, inside or out
There’s one thing of which there’s no doubt
Allah knows, Allah knows.
And whatever lies in the heavens and the Earth
Every star in this whole universe
Allah knows, Allah knows.
When you find that special someone
Feel your whole life has barely begun
You can walk on the moon shout it to everyone
Allah knows, Allah knows.
When you gaze with love in your eyes
Catch your glimpse of paradise
And you see your child take the first breath of life
Allah knows, Allah knows.

Chorus
When you lose someone close to your heart
See your whole world fall apart
And you try to go on but it seems so hard
Allah knows, Allah knows.
See we all have a path to choose
Through the valleys and hills we go
With the ups and the downs never fret never frown
Allah knows, Allah knows.

Chorus 2x
Every grain of sands in every desert plants
He knows…
Every sheet of palm, every closed hand
He knows…
Every sparkling tear on every eye lash
He knows…
Every thought I had and every word I share
He knows…
Allah knows…


p/s: Jumpa lagu ni masa baca artikel kat Iluvislam..sesungguhnya ALLAH Maha Mengetahui..hanya padaNya aku berserah..amin..

CUTI..CUTI

Setelah seminggu bekerja, siang n malam..akhirnye mmg rasa worth it sbb kitorang dapat cuti hari isnin (semalam)..yeay! Masa Kak Zila call bagitau kitorang dapat cuti aku rasa hepi sgt2.hehe.

So hari ahad petang tu aku balik n rehatkan diri..penat woo keje siang malam nie. Malam tu dalam kul 9 hp aku berbunyi..Kak Tim msg ajak pergi tgk wayang esok..n pergi raya umah Shah. huhu da hujung2 raya baru nak g berjalan. aku yang tgh mamai gile x larat nak balas msg..so esoknye pagi2 dalam kul 8 lebih baru aku balas. Dioarang ajak aku g Jusco Seremban 2..alang2 da g sana, kitorang nak g r raya umah Shah.


Aku ingat ramai yang pegi..rupanya aku, Kak Tim n Zaidan je..yang laen missing in action. Huhu kitorang pegi jugakla..naik Myvi Zaidan...mm lama gak nak sampai sbb umah Shah tu kat Paroi. Ble da sampai umah die, kitorang makan lunch..mak die masak. mamat nie anak tunggal..ayah da x ade. huu sedih jugak tgk mak die, da x kuat sangat da sejak accident hari tu. masa g umah die baru aku tau..parents die accident..ayah die passed away. mak die selamat tapi ade effect la dari accident tu. skrg die la jaga mak die sbb die anak tunggal. Yg agak mengharukan ati aku..sbb die sanggup travelling jauh2 semata2 nak duk jugak kat negeri sembilan. sbbnye sedara mara die ramai kat situ, so masa die g keje ade sedara nak tlg jaga mak die. hehe Shah nie agak brutal la orangnye..mulut pun boleh tahan laser sbb orang Melaka..byk kali aku terasa ngan kata2 die. huhu tapi pk2 balik, lebih baik mulut jahat tapi ati baik. ramai orang yang aku kenal, cakap lembut je tapi belakang mengata bukan main da..haha especially bile da masuk environment keje nie..


Haha ok la, cut the crap. Pas g raya baru kitorang g JJ Seremban 2. Kak Tim ajak g karaoke..tapi aku x sampai ati nak bagi mamat 2 orang+ Kak Tim dgr suara pitching lari aku nie..hahaha. Last skali kitorang g tgk wayang je..cite PAPADOM by afdlin shauki..huhu cite nie best la..klaka..

Mm hari nie aku masuk lambat..kul 10..huhu keje banyak x siap, nak buat Quiz..n nak bg assignment kat budak2 sem 2 yang macam sengal je nie...asyik bising memanjang dlm class..suke dtg lambat..da penat aku tegur, kejap je insaf..pastu buat balik. mmg x makn saman.heh.

K la, byk keje nak focus nie...bye2